Lumbar Discectomy

So it has been awhile since I have updated. I have been busy with the boys I take care of, the lake opening, and...my back!

Tomorrow morning, Mom and I will head to St. Luke's, for my hopefully final step of these herniated discs I have. I will be having a lumbar discectomy, which means they will go in my back, shave away some of my bone, to make more room for my nerves, and then fix my disc, and spinal canal which had a slight tare in it from the disc pushing out into it. That will (we pray) fix my leg pain, and back pain! :)

Anyone who knows me even a little, knows that I am terrible with anxiety, even when it comes to little events, let alone..a back surgery. So, the past week I have been trying to stay very busy, kind of dove head first into my lake stuff trying to make sure to have it all done in time for this. I will be taking a little over a week off work down at the lake, and my boys will be with my Best Friends, Sarah, also my boss, Tina, is arranging a lot of stuff to make up for me being gone. I cant say thanks enough to the both of them, without them, my mom, Ben, and Corri, I probably would have cancelled surgery already. But to say the least, I am nervous, and scared. Everyone has told me to have faith, which I always do. I just know that this is going to fix me, after surgery, I will return to my ass kicking therapist Jake, who I hate...a lot, but love at the same time. I have been with him since January 13, three times a week. He has helped me loose weight, get stronger, and help with a lot of the pain. He believes that this surgery is the right thing for me, so..i believe him!

All I want to ask is that if you read this, just include me in your prayers. I am very nervous, I will be honest. I am scared for when I wake up in recovery, I will not see my mom, which I more so feel bad for the nurses. I am scared for life after, and recovery process. I am scared of the brace, and looking like a freak show. And I am scared I will get depressed sitting around the house waiting to heal. To Kaylee and Carson, i go by Abby go go. I go alllll the time. There is always things to be done, money to be made, fun to be had, and beer to be drank in the life as Abby. I just hope I learn to relax, breath, and heal...fast! :)

But I will be turning my blog over to My little sister, and best friend Corri. Who will keep everyone updated during this process and stay at the hospital. I could be there anywhere from 1-3 days.

Thanks beforehand for the prayers and thoughts, hopefully as soon as they put me under, my good friend Dan will be there to comfort be and pull me thru this. I know hes watchin out for me in a better place. Keepin' me and everyone else safe. No doubt he will keep me strong thru this adventure.